Woke up this morning with Nick Cave floating around in my inner space, after having watched 2 films about him. It was to be expected.
When I came into consciousness, i started thinking about the monstrous, the aberrant, the deviant, the hideous, the distasteful. I felt this is where we are as a civilisation, in the middle of the monstrous. Our politicians are monstrous, our political systems are monstrous, the inequality in the world is monstrous.
I realised that I have always had a deep connection and relationship with the monstrous in my creativity, using my art to exorcise my inner demons, yet also to reflect what i see as demonic around me. Genetic manipulation where we have very little idea of what we are doing, we are starting to have monstrous effects on the climate, creating storms, droughts, hurricanes, floods. We are monstrous when we lack empathy for others and refuse to see their suffering.
I realised that even though my work is focussed on beauty and the transcendent, I want to bring the monstrous in. Today, i managed to do that, I gave a frog 2 extra legs, I gave a shark a double tail. Although these are just tiny slights, that perhaps some people might not even notice, it gave me immense satisfaction, like i was creating my own Frankensteins equal what nuclear radiation can do to living tissue. Of course i did look up those hideous images on the net, and allowed them penetrate into my mind, my unconscious will deal with them and spit them out at a later stage in my creativity.
I felt like this was quite a breakthrough in my work, adding depth to a feeling of superficiality I was having about it.
After all there is a dent in transcendent.